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Within days of posting my photo and message on Facebook, I had hundreds of people messaging me with their own similar stories. I felt like so many of us go through hard times in life, but we don't always have people to talk to. I want everyone to know that they are not alone! If you want to comment on my stories, please do, but please keep them kind.

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Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Augustina and Antonia

This is Diamond's beautiful story she wanted to share about the loss of her twin girls:

"In late February 2010 I was 19 when I found out I was pregnant. I was still living with my dad and going to beauty school while working a part time job. My boyfriend at the time was living with his parents working a part time job and had just signed up for the Navy. When we found out we didn't tell anyone I was pregnant right away except for a couple friends. When we finally got the courage to tell our family we told my family first because we knew they would take it the best. We told my boyfriend's family about a week later and at first they weren't happy, but it grew on them. We went for my first appointment and found out I was about 16 weeks already and we heard the heart beat (this was before we found out it was twins). That's when I fell in love and started to become excited! The doctor was feeling my stomach and said I felt larger along than what I was, so we went and did an emergency ultra sound on May 22st, and that's when we found out we were having identical twin girls. We told everyone and they were so excited. 

In June 2010 everything took a turn for the worst. I had started spotting so I rushed to the hospital but all they said is I was dehydrated and I needed to drink lots of water. Then a week later I was hurting so we went right back and again they sent me home saying I was dehydrated and that I need to drink 3 gallons of water each day. A couple of days later I went back to the hospital because I was cramping and bleeding and my oldest daughter's sac had broken. This time they kept me in the hospital and gave me some medicine to try to keep them in and relax me. They had told my dad that I was having contractions but I could not feel them. On June 16, 2010 at 8:56am I gave birth to my oldest, Augustina Charmaine Alonzo and she was stillborn. Then at 9:04 am I gave birth to my youngest twin, Antonia Tiffany Alonzo, and she only lived for seconds. She died while she was getting baptized. They told me it was Twin to twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS).

It's been 5 years and I'm okay with them not being with me. I know it was God saying I wasn't ready, and I tell myself that my mom (who had passed away) want to meet her grandchildren. Now I'm pregnant again with a little boy and I am so excited! He's due anytime now. I've seen a specialist this pregnancy and he has finally given me answers about my first pregnancy and TTTS. It feels so much better now to know that it was nothing that could have been stopped and it was nothing I did. I tell my son he's got two older sisters who love him and who watch over him. I do miss them but I know they a better in heaven with God and my family." 

Thank you so much for sharing your story Diamond! I am so excited for your new addition, and he will know that he has two precious angels watching out for him. Wishing you all the best, and thank you again for being so open! -Heather

1 comment:

  1. No thank you for sharing my story I hope it helps other woman who have gone through the loss of a child/ or children. To update I had my “Rainbow Baby” (baby after miscarriage/stillborn) and he is health he was born September 15, 2015 and when I was having him I felt the presents of my girls and my mother with me in the OR, and I see is older sister Augustina in him every time I look at him and when I talk to him about his sisters and grandma he gives this big smile. I thank God every day for my miracle thank you again.